Friday, January 18, 2013

Good Days Ahead of You

    Almost four years ago, before we came here in America was the most difficult and saddest moments of my life.. It was a trying time...I was never at peace not a single month or week but everyday is full worries and tears..

  I remember, I asked GOD "when will this end". I just want to go back to my single life when life is easy and full of fun...

  I am depressed and discouraged.. I just live my life because there is no choice but to live..
 
   My marriage was not working, evidently.. The business that I put up was a flop...I lost my second child..I can't find a good yaya for Sophia,the daily grind of life really put a stress on me.. Not to mention my waistline is getting bigger and bigger..
My life was a complete disaster...

   I really felt alone..
   My husband and I are together but I lost HIM..
   It is not me whom he want..
   And I am feeling the same way too..
   We thought that would be the solution for our emptiness and dwindling spirit.

   It was an agony of long suffering..All my dreams are slowly vanishing...
    Having a good life..
    Having a good marriage..
    Having a better me..

   To have a better understanding of things going around I turned to Joel Osteen.  I read his books "Your best life now and Become a better you".  Somehow, it helped me find my way through...Due to some reasons, I stayed in the marriage even when every day your mind tells you to go out of it and start a new but your heart still says no...

   Until one day, my husband decided to come here in U.S and perhaps start a new life.. For all the reasons that He laid upon me at that time is still a mystery... I forced myself to believe that He will leave his good job because of his reasons.. Reasons that I don't want to disclose at this time.

  Settling here is not easy, to some yes to some no... A lot of sacrifice and hardship.  People sometimes are not the way we expect them to be... With my empty spirit, I turned to God to help us iron out everything that needs straightening out.. My faith at that time are not that deep but I continue in exchange of a better life..

   While reading the bible, I glanced at this verse from Jeremiah 29:11-14 " For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope...Then you call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you ..You will seek and find me, when you seek me with all your heart..I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you  from all the nations  and all the places where I have driven you, and I will bring you back to the place from I sent you into exile."

    Hope pour into my heart and meditate on that verse...I planted that verse in my heart.. I said this is it..better days are coming!! I looked like a fool but God is a God of restoration...

  Years past and God  gave me rest in all my troubles..He said in Ecclesiastes 3:11 "He has made  everything beautiful in it' s time."
 
   My marriage is restored.. I' m enjoying the best relationship that I have with my husband.. We forgive each other and continue to love without condition..God gave back what we lost.. Before, everything is vague now everything is clearer although we are still living in a world of uncertainty...

   Sometimes, we asked ourselves why we have to endure the pain and loneliness..Why do we have to shed tears and feel so much heartaches.. I came to realize that God is trying to reveal Himself to me in a facade of trials and challenges.
He gave it to me so I could experience His faithfulness and loving mercy...

   There are episodes in our lives  that we thought should be deleted.. Because we want all the comfort and happiness that this world brings.. We have to walk on the valley of tears and climb mountains to reach the peek of true happiness, peace and victory..

  If you are in a situation that you feel you cannot go through anymore... Do not be dismayed and discouraged..This is just a phase that we have to go through that called Life.

 Let's not stay on the negative but instead live on the positive..Move on and shake off the bad vibes...God said "Never will I leave you or forsake you." Hebrew  13:5                                    Be of good courage. Create a new vision and do what is right...

  There are still good days ahead of us.. Good Days of hope,  Faith, and love...

  God bless and stay in Faith with the Lord Almighty...


Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Let' s Journey Together

    I created this blog because I want to share with you guys the joy and peace that I received from the Lord.  Ever since I decided to travel with Him everyday of my life, to one place to another,to every situations and circumstances I am in.. I just surrender everything to Him...

    I used to live my life full of fear, regrets, anxiety that makes me do things that I
don't want to do and still do it as an escape to make me feel good.

    Pressured to feel love.
    Pressured to be accepted.
    Pressured to win the race all the time..
    
    Thank GOD, that He is a forgiving father. He welcomed a person like me and heal me from all my hurts and pains.. He gave me a new perspective about who He is and what He can do to my life. He gave a new meaning to my life. Cliche it may seem but that's how I really feel.

    This didn't happen overnight..I encounter a lot of pot holes along the way. Gushing winds blow upon my face day after day, night after night. Sometimes, I rest and let my human instinct lead my way. But, it always fail me.

    So, I seek Him..
    I humble myself..
    I kneel before Him..
    And cried...
   Then, I gave up and invited Him to have a journey with me...

   I encourage you guys. Try traveling with the Lord as your companion.  I t will not be easy at first but we have to be determined and make a commitment to know Him..
Sometimes, it will make you feel that nothing is going right and no sense at all.. Just hang on and hold His hand while we travel together with Him.

   For sure along the way we can see a light in a dark tunnel or a fresh flower in the springtime..
  God has a perfect plan for each one of us.  We just have to follow and trust Him..

 
Enjoy your travel...